Crying Over Absolutely Nothing

I often wonder if our life would have been any different if this pandemic never happened.

Maybe we finally had that honeymoon.

Who thinks about a fucking honeymoon during a pandemic? Sorry if it’s shallow but I still get really sad about it.

Is that bad? People are dying and I’m here, inside a comfortable home, wishing I could travel? It sounds selfish but I can’t help but be sad about it sometimes.

Because maybe if things were different, I would be pregnant by now and not have to worry about giving birth during a pandemic. Maybe all the things we planned & talked about & dreamed about would have actually happened

This isn’t how our 2020 was supposed to be like and while we all put on a pretty face and say we’ll soldier through this sometimes when it’s 3 o clock in the morning- you can’t help but cry.