i love you but i hate you

Of a face full of words you’d think you’d get a few right. With a fist full of change and absolutely no sense. What little I have learned about love is at my pride’s expense.

I just never thought i would let you get to me the way you do. And i thought i had you but it suddenly feels like i don’t. And i just wanna know WHY I LET YOU DO THIS TO ME.

I wish i used my head but i wished you used yours more. Because i know i fall pretty fast. I’ll fall for your i love you’s and i’ll think you mean it. but at the end of the night, it’s still not me. AND FUCK, IT NEVER WILL BE!

You should’ve held your tongue when you stopped me from leaving to tell me you loved me. because i swear to god in that exact moment i felt like i owned the world. I felt like i could do anything. and i really thought you meant it.

Stupid me. i let another YOU get the best of me.

I guess this is proof that i never learn.

Hoping has only got me so far. I need you to be to the real thing.

I starve,
I starve for you.