Let’s be real

my new philosophy about dad:
    “you give me P5,000.00 a month and i’ll be good to you.”

my philosophy on life:
    “just don’t trust. period.”

do you know what people’s problems are?
    they conclude that just because you got into a big fight on the bus the day before and just because it leaked out and just because you’re not going to dance anymore and just because you got called by the teacher and just because you had probably the 3rd oddest conference in your life [first with the chua and perez’s (summer), kathya and then this] and just because you have no one to hang out with and just because people just started noticing, they just go ahead and think [and say] that your officially “sad” and miserable when the truth is, i’m not.

    i dont care about not leaving any foot prints behind at my high school because half of the people you ask don’t even know that that fucking school exists.

    i don’t care that i don’t get to dance because it’s just a batch name. i have a more important job to do. cebu city olymmpics. something that yumi and her long chin could NEVER beat.

    i don’t care that i won’t be able to dance this year because i’ll be in college soon that means parties wit lots of dancing and  lots of dancing for PE.
 
    and i’d like to say that it’s just dancing but unfortunately, to me, it’s not just dancing.

  
    and i don’t care that i’m not talking to jet because i never liked him and i find great comfort in knowing that nobody really does either.

    and i don’t care that i’m not talking to kathya because i’ve gone 6 months without talking to her and trust me, i can do it again. this time, without the break down.

    and i don’t care that i’m not talking to josh because HE among everyone else i’ve mentioned let me down and hurt me the most. he left me alone because he chose his girlfriend over his best friend [again]. he never came up to me to comfort me or talk to me or even bother to be human enough to fix our problems.

    i hate people. i really really do.

    and i don’t care if the seniors loose and if i let down a lot of people by refusing to dance even if me and yumi are on neutral grounds. i don’t care. people disappoint people. it’s my turn to let everyone else down and feel pretty damn good about myself because i do. god, i swear i do.

    if we loose, well, you did say you could do it yourself.

    so good luck with the rest of your lives, bitches.

    i’ll be driving in 3 weeks or so.

    and still i’m forgetting it’s my birthday.

3 Replies to “Let’s be real”

  1. you have to update me! i never catch you online in messenger anymore 🙁 missyou! college life’s still pretty hectic by the way, but i can’t wait until you get here nonetheless!

  2. you have to update me! i never catch you online in messenger anymore 🙁 missyou! college life’s still pretty hectic by the way, but i can’t wait until you get here nonetheless!

  3. you have to update me! i never catch you online in messenger anymore 🙁 missyou! college life’s still pretty hectic by the way, but i can’t wait until you get here nonetheless!

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