we are broken

school sure is depressing. but we’ve finally got some drama in that tiny mad house. finally. but then again, who ever liked the drama. lol.

i’m pretty sure the whole drama llama scene fits the big public/ private schools who’re flooded with kids whom we hardly know either by face or name but it sure as hell isn’t as glamorous as you think when you’re stuck in a 3 story square shaped school of 40 kids max in one batch of 2 sections where EVERYONE knows your first and last names and sometimes even your middle initial. i swear, drama does not belong there. it should be ANYWHERE but THERE.

so where do i start?

do i start from the news that samantha has dengue?

or do i tell you guys about the argument i got into with my homeroom teacher?

or how joanne and dj can’t be together because of our homeroom teacher?

or about the NCAE’s that’re coming up SOON?

or what else? there’s tons going on. and to think, we only had 2 1/2 school days this week. pffft.

so, most interesting first? ok. i pick.

yeah, i got into an “argument” with my homeroom teacher this afternoon because idk, i guess my inability to just shut up kicked in again. see, brazil found out that we said some pretty ugly stuff about her during our class survey that our guidance teacher held and i guess she felt bad cuz she just stopped talking to us and starting blabbing about not knowing what is real anymore or if we were even real people or whatever.

so yeah, she FINALLY [after 2 days or her bullshit] decided to open up and tell us what the hell was up with her. and when she did, i was one of the people who she obviously wanted to speak out, so i just went out and told her all the shit i knew no one in my class would ever dare say to her which resulted into this fight or whatever you wanna call it and she eventually walked out in tears [and i was tearry eyed too] and that was that.

everyone just seemed like nothing happened after that. we even made fun of it afterwards on the bus. lol. we are saddists like that. [insert evil laugh here]

i didn’t seek for glorification, i know who i am and i need no student to judge me. i didn’t really hate anyone but i surely felt betrayed that among my classes, it’s my very own class who will stab my back. anyways, what’s done is done. it’s an experience i would always look back and learn from. have a good nights sleep/ – brazil

speaking of the devil… i just got that reply from a text message i sent her like HOURS ago…

hi teacher, good evening. i just wanted to say sorry about what happened earlier. especially if i made myself come out as someone disrespectful. i just want you to know that if you feel bad about having to hear all those issues from someone else then we’re sorry but we really didn’t know how to open up to you in the first place. maybe we weren’t eing considerate about the comments we gave but that time, everything just came out and i guess nagsalig mi na t. bel promised to keep everything confidential. teacher, we only meant to air out or feelings and if t. bel neverthat survey, we never would have brouighten all those issues up cuz frankly, we think you’re a good teacher but we all have our flaws man gyud. i hope you can forgive me even if i already screwed up our rel. -issa

i’m such a suck up. hahahaha. but whatever. she’s still a bitch. 

moving on..

yeah, about the whole joanne and dj thing. it’s sad actually. but it’s all brazil’s fault which is why i hate her now. she totally snitched on them. she even exagerated and told jo’s rents that the administration sent her a notice about their public display of affection. pffft. since when the hell did our school ever give a rats arse about shit like that? never ever. it is soo sad.

but it’s not my business.

then there’s mary ann, the girl everyone hates. she’s a loser. everyone knows that but thing is, she’s now fully aware of her loser status and has attempted to suck me into her loserific life and make me her allie. yes, my worst nightmare is coming true. the bitch actually sits besides me now and tries to have good conversations with me which includes giving me information about a certain event that happened during family day. i’m riding along for the information part that i MIGHT squeel to the other girls in my class. oh, i’m evil. yes, i am. :>

oh yeah, getting of cards tomorrow. weeeeeeeeeeeeh.

so far, i  know that i’ve gotten

89 – physics

89 – economics [social sciences/ civics]

86 – english [wtf?! mervin is GAY!]

88 – THE

83 – accounting

yeah. my grades’re ay. enough to get me on te honors list if it weren’t for accounting. but you’d think i’d get to go out and enjoy my life tomorrow?! NOOOO. fcuk bitch. no. i have to fucking stay home tomorrow and do god knows what. proli pull my hair out? idk. i’d die right now if i could. argh.

god, i seriously need you soo much right now. 🙁

and once again, me and the rents are anything but alryt. and i know it’s most likely not my fault for being unable to put on a happy show but i swear to god, i am in no position to pretend to be something i’m not. and i’m pissed cuz i am soo near james right now but i’m not with him. i’m breaking inside gyud. it’s the worst. and he’s leaving on sunday for bohol and i’ll be at ultima and fuck, that sucks.

cathy, you’re fired from being my mom. you SUCK ASS!