I’ve been crying in the shower a lot these days.

They weren’t lying when they said motherhood was a lonely thing.

Thank you for asking me to hold you a little longer on days when I feel absolutely useless.

For reminding me that I will always be something on days when I feel like nobody knows who I am.

For looking at me the way you do when I can’t even look at myself.

You are everything.

There is a stigma around being a mom, аnd ѕосiеtу dоеѕn’t tаlk аbоut thе lоnеlinеѕѕ, iѕоlаtiоn, аnd loss оf idеntitу that sometimes accompanies thiѕ сhоiсе.
Bеfоrе уоur lifе as a mоthеr, you might’vе bееn a ѕtudеnt, ѕеrvеr, bаnkеr, tеасhеr, оr lаwуеr. Yоur раѕѕiоn аnd work wеrе rесоgnizеd in thе “real” wоrld outside оf your hоmе.
The mоmеnt уоu еntеrеd mаtеrnitу lеаvе, then trаnѕitiоnеd to ѕtауing аt home with уоur bаbу, you might’vе fеlt likе your identity wаѕ traded оvеr for one wоrd: Mom.
This might make you feel confused, angry, sad, and alone.
Depression comes in you have to think of caring for the kids and the entire household.
Your pains to yourself and even take part in the body deformation.
Most time we feel like the only pure gifts we have is our kids or baby.
May be we are not getting all the love we deserve from the society.
Everyone thought it’s an easy Job and we all pretend its normal just being a mother or all we need to be a mother is just money.
But we deserve better we want the care, we want to be loved.

Written by: Mommy’s World

There’s an ant in my coffee but I don’t have enough hands to carry north, a mug and to fish it out.

So I’m just going to drink the ant.

Today I didn’t wake up when you called out to play instead I lulled you to sleep so that I could get more shut eye.

Today we skipped bath time as I said, “what’s one day?” because I stayed up too late last night and just couldn’t bring myself to bathe you.

Today I only played with you once and repeatedly tried to take you out of my arms instead of let you lay with me.

And now can’t take back the hours where you needed me and I wasn’t there for you because I didn’t put you first.

I will never let that happen again. I will always put you first

I am not the same person I was when I met you.

I love harder, I see things in ways I never did before, my heart is a lot softer…

I feel myself changing everyday and that’s all because of you. You’ve given me so much- you littlest bundle of joy.

Taylor Swift on a cold, rainy morning while North is asleep on his rocker, my coffee is hot and Paolo is in bed. I feel like the world is mine. I feel at peace.

Taken in between feedings.

I just want you to know I love you through all the fuss and screams.

I love you, you’re the best.

I guess all the cliches are true- the moment you first lay eyes on your baby all the pain suddenly goes away; the 9 long months of puking, back pain & inability to eat anything raw becomes worth it and you know… The list goes on.

I have always loved you & I have always known that I would love you but I never knew how much I was capable of loving until I met you and now that you’re here, I can’t even put them into words & even trying would be such a great injustice.

You are the most precious thing I have ever seen- so happy, so full of life and you are definitely a product of the love that Paolo & I have for one another multipled by a gazillion. You are love and you are loved.

This blog is 3 weeks late but welcome to the world, my little Nolan North Perez Gandionco.

Hello Bayhanas- I’m back!

As of writing, I am currently 38 weeks into my pregnancy and after all the highs and lows, I am currently planning out my post partum journey.

One of the things I have been considering after childbirth is sculpting or waist training or whatever else you want to call it.

I’ll be missing my baby bump for sure but I’m also very eager to fit into my pre baby clothes again and I think waist sculpting is a very real and practical option for me. Obviously my body has gone through so many changes in the last 9 months but at least this will give me a sense of normalcy again which is something I’d be lying about if I said I didn’t miss.

As a part of my research, I’ve check out a couple brands and I was lucky to have chanced on these 2 kinds of sculptors which are serious considerations of mine.

Check them out:

The 360 lipo foam board

I think the foam board would be something I would wear while at home as it seems a little bulky. Also, based on the material- it looks like something I could possibly sweat in so I’d say this is a great option for sculpting while I’m just chilling and being a momma at home.

My next option is:

The waist trainer wrap

This wrap looks very promising to me and is something I think I could wear whenever I go out to give me and my soon to be new pouch some confidence.

I have to say it looks very comfortable & light weight so I’m really excited to try this one out.

Which one is your bet?

xx,
Issa

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