ok. i’ve been acting like a complete bitch who doesn’t want to talk to anyone. i’ve been dodging text messages and not answering my calls just because well, i’m just not in the mood too. i can do that, right? lol.
honestly, i cannot deny the happiness he brings me. because, yeah he does make me happy and everyone knows it.
but sometimes, it gets too serious and i can’t help but wish that it would all just… stop
honestly, i can’t help but think that we’re as cut out for each other as i think we should be. i’m tired of texting of talking on the phone lang and i have a feeling that it won’t be as fun in real actual life.
i don’t know. it’s xmas eve and i shouldn’t be feeling this way but despite the given time and date i can’t help but wish it all to end.
i’m soo evil right now
but i don’t think i can do this anymore.
i don’t i can do it.
i don’t wanna hurt anybody.
he’s the last guy i want to hurt. but honestly, i don’t think i can make him happy. i think all i’ll do is hurt him and hurt him. because quite frankly, i’m not the girl he thinks i am. sure, he gives me all these weird feelings but, i just have too many things going on in my life right now that i don’t know what i want or who i want or if i want to do this. i wish i could wish it all away. but i think i have to end it before i do something completely stupid. and i know for sure that i will. or already have. because that’s what i do. i do stupid things.