i’m getting it again. my chest is heavy and i feel stupid but i don’t even know why. i feel like crying but then crying would be stupid because i don’t have a good reason to cry.

i guess like right now i just feel like i’m trapped or something and i just wanna burst out and shout and cry and be held. and quite frankly, i’m so tired of feeling like this.

i hate just “getting by”. ugh.

i need to cry it out.

soo much is going on.

i need to find myself in all this mess. but how?