My life lately has been a series of suitcase trips. With the increasing number of shoots, divorced parents, no longer living at home, a boyfriend who lives an hour and a half minutes away from you and managing a business; I’ve been living out of my suitcase for the past 2 months with NPA and LOTS of laundry.
You probably think that I live a fancy life with a walk in closet and silky sheets. In reality, I haven’t washed my first pair of sheets ever (I just keep them in my laundry basket), I have 2 Orocan cabinets, 2 clothes racks and a shoe rack to hold all of my clothes. I lack hangers and another shoe rack, I’ll remind myself to buy some more tomorrow, but in the meantime my hangers are about to snap from waaaay too much layering.
Honestly, my life has been soo intense lately. So many things have been piling up and I’m not just talking about laundry. I’m constantly wondering how big the world is and how much of it I can take on, I’m learning that not everyone is your friend even if you thought they were and more importantly, that I am not always the best friend in the world either.
I just feel like life has certainly put me in a different position than what I had expected and with everything stocking on top of one another, it just felt like a really good time to de- clutter and put everything in its proper place- figuratively and literally.
I currently have 3 drawers for bottoms; 2 drawers for tops (categorized by fabric and use), 2 racks worth of dresses; rompers and cover ups yet, I constantly find myself wearing the same things and complaining that I have nothing to wear. Doesn’t that sound just a tad bit ungrateful sometimes? Well, I’ve cleaned out my closets and I’m going to try to be a bit more contented with the things that I currently have. Maybe I’ll start looking from the bottom of the drawer this time instead of the top.
In life we’ll meet a lot of people and I guess we meet them for different reasons. Maybe some people come into your life to make you realize that you need to step up in life while some make you realize that you’re just where you’re supposed to be and maybe sometimes, people come into your life to make you realize that you had a great thing all along and that you don’t need “new friends” to live a better life. My ideals about friendship in this day and age have definitely changed and I’m glad that it did. I truly am grateful for that.
We don’t get to choose our families but we can always make the best out of what we have. In a couple of years, I’ll be left alone here while every one goes back to the States and that bums me out a lot because I’ve chosen to make a life here in the Philippines. But I think to myself that this is my decision and I have to stand by it. My family will always be there for me and even if I have 2 dads, 2 moms and a bunch of siblings, I know that I am loved in multiple proportions and that they will always have my back.
I am turning 25 in a couple of months and to say that I am where I wanted to be by the time I turned 25 would be a complete lie. I always thought that I would be more put together by 25 and that I would have established myself by now but the reality is that I am only starting. I thought life after graduation would be easier and the universe would just fall into place because I wanted it soo much but apparently, it doesn’t work that way. I guess I can look at turning 25 two ways, I can either let it hinder me by thinking that I’m running out of time or I can think of it as a milestone. I reached 25 and I’ve achieved this much, who’s to say I can’t achieve more in the next 5 years, right? Quarter life crisis can be a bitch, I tell you.
Blogging will always have a special place in my life whether if I continue to blog for fashion or if I drop it all completely and resort back to www.issatalks.wordpress.com where this all began. Blogging is my form of self expression, it’s where I can be who I want to be without having to impress anyone or feel bad about the things that I have to say. I shouldn’t have to let other people dictate me or tell me how to run my blog because at the end of the day, this blog is one of the few things that no one can ever take away from me. Blogging has taught me many things but if there’s anything that I’ve learned that I’d like to impart upon anyone else, it’s that it taught me to mind my own business and stop trying to compare myself to others. Everyone has their own writing skills, their own personal style, their own strengths and abilities and although we might not always like it, it’s not for us to judge. At the end of the day, I just like being able to come home, sit down and put all my thoughts into place which happens to be through blogging and I’m sure a lot of us feel the same way. So let’s just all try to live our own harmonious lives and everything will be ok.
So I hope I’ve imparted enough insight on everyone to make it through the rest of the week. Honestly, this post is more for me than it is for anyone else and I’m just happy that I get to leave it here and let life do its job.
Take care guys,
You have been one of the craziest, weirdest, most emotionally erratic, most unfiltered, sometimes not responsible person (:p) Ive known in my life– yet also one of the most real/ genuine/ candid / lovable ones. You are starting, yes. And right now that is the most important thing you could do. Do not forget also though that you have come a long way. When you forget the “hows” just remember the “whys”.
Love you. You got this. Keep going 🙂 xx
Love you always, twin! xx Thanks for everythinnggg! And please date me soon. I’m free tonight so let me know what your schedule is like! 🙂