i’m the new cancer – fear me

yes, it’s the weekend and guess who’t not not NOT under house arrest anymore? 😀 yeah, me. the magnificent claps for me. lmao. i have two parties that i have to and want to, of course go to tomorrow. renette’s and nathan and james [joint twin party]. both’re in ayala which’s easy for me for soo many reasons and since it’s at ayala, it means that i can still jhang out with chabel and the others. oh yes, i love. lmao.

about school. i’d just like to say,”dagha’g salamat sa ka ninyong tanan sa tanan ninyong gi hatag na suporta’s ako.” wtf. don’t ask. i am the pride of joy of maria montessori children’s house. maria montessori case ele bambini. lmao. to whoever reads this: this is not mockery. i’m enjoying life. this is life. deal with it. lmao. :p

i’m in glee club. yey. it’s fun. i guess and i’m also in karatedo. yes, i’m officially vying for honors. there’s nothing wrong with that, right? eveni f i don’t get on the list? yey. at least more clubs for me. karatedo. karatedo. lmao.

uhm, yeah, school is trying as always. i have to balance my time for ssc now cuz everyone’s takingit secriuosly. i can’t bring my phone to school na gyud cuz you know, secret spies and yes, i’m afraid i  have to be responsible and i good role model and shit. it’s a sacrifice but nowadays, yeah. nvm.

and what else? nothing. bye. lmao

we’re loving the wrong people

hey, here i am blogging again. high school musical tonight and i’m excited. jumping up and down in my chair kind of excited. if it’s a love thinggy, i bet i’ll go to bed tonight feeling terribly miserable at the thought that.. well, single blessedness gets to you or i’m just a really big loser. i know that 🙂 sigh.

anyways, this week was ok, i guess. school was ok. bearable. well, my grades have been ok. perfects and a good 3 or 4 mistakes. i think or i’m just sounding really – unhumble right now. lmao

well, t. jojo made me cry in class. and once again, i’m the first person to cry in class. i do not blame myself. lmao. it’s him. he stole my notebook. i hate him for that. but i like him as an adviser. you know. whatever. i will eventually change my mind. lmao. sorry, kev. you have issues with him. i know. lmao.

last friday, mommy left for bangkok, she went with annie and debbie to – shop? yeah, well, it was basically cuza that. they proli needed a long vacation. whatever with them. i’m mad i’m not with them. but do they care? nooooo. and along with mommy being at bangkok, i’ve been under house arrest 🙁 well, at least the fun came to me. yes, it did. nina, my love came over yesterday and we bonded. i missed her soo much. it was all fun. i love her:) yes, i do

and then today, we just went to ayala with the father and the monkey. just that. well, whatever. nothing to say really. life has been ok from someone else’s point of view but i think i’m just being ungrateful as always. but i don’t blame myself for some reason. hmm. i don’t like this feeling. lmao. i’m thinking of a quote right now. but, i don’t feel like thinking much so, forget that. lmao.


ok, i had to ask her where she was looking after taking this pic. what? we have two choices. the screen or  the cam. guess where the smart ass was staring.
big babies
ok, we basically agreed to stare at the webcam
hmp. i’m the dork, she’s the cheerleader :]

no, not really. we’re both the fabulous chickletz 1 & 2. where’s chab? namimiga. lmao. joke, chab. love you!

as of the moment

second day of class and i’m alread tired. but good thing, it wasn’t to .. helfull. but think about it, it’s always fun on the first days of school. give me one week to start hating it again. i know i eventually will. lmao.

we don’t live life just to watch moments pass us by.
soget drunk more often, get high
as much as possible and get lost in the music.
cuz you’re a rockstar, baby

– morning highs

well, first two days are basically orientations and discussions about rules and regulations, demeritts, my best friends. blah blah blah. overrated shit. lmao.

i got placed in T. Jojo’s advisory class. he was all about how he didn’t really wanna be an advisor and shit but how he was happy to have us… nalang? lmao. but i like the fact that i got him as homeroom advisor, he’s pretty cool. lmao. he said he’s changed though. sure. that’s what i thought about myself before school started. well, that was before rodeena slapped me in the face with an, “wa gyud na usab si issa oie.” niice one. though, i have no idea what that was supposed to mean. yes, i have reasons for not talking to peope like her. haha. don’t ask me what that means.i don’t know what it means either. i just know that it sounds cool – at the moment. this will bite me in ass. i know it will.

and i’ve also recently discovered that people have been holding grudges against me. uh oh. hahai. i’m me, people. take it and love it.or leave me alone, thankyouverymuch. lmao.

btw, we have a new bus. it looks like a kao siung bus. uhm, spell check? i know. lmao. well, if you asked me, i liked the original rusty old big yellow bus more though. but this one has air conditionning so, i can’t hate it. lmao.

and all the third years are on the third floor. third floor love. lmao.

of classmates, i’m classmates with kathya. 🙂

classmates with : anne, sam, bianca, krista, mary ann, akki, joan ulgasan, and 5 other girls. hahai.

pev, francis, toshio, kevin, joseph,  mikel, edgar and 1 guy….

dennis – the korean, from korea
jessica – the korean, from royal oaks
christina – the sips girls.
monalisa pableo – theresian love, my darlings.

and that. lmao.

hmmm. we had a mass today. so, school was basically pointless. lmao.

and yeah, the school’s packed with new students. don’t you just LOVE?! hahai. it’s not easy though,i should know. my allergies to freshmen are starting to show. i have pimples all over my forehead now. and this is the first time this’s ever happened. i’m verry, verry scared. lmao.

and carlow, you owe me. i won the bet, thank jesus, i did. lmao.

half day classes til today. been at ayala. i have  a new wish list. uh huh, uh huh 🙂

goodbye, goodnight

it’s 1:55 am and i’m up, waiting for joshua pierra varela-la to come over and drop over some food and just to hang out. i needed somone tonight. well,i needed someone a few hours ago when i was hyped up on chocolate and ice cream and sugar. i had cherry flavored spit. i know i’m awesome. jp.

and i’m waking up again to see who you are
and who you’ve turned out to be,
listening to you speak again,
seeing you trying to hurt me.
So i’m trying to fall back into bed,
into reality, back into my own head.
Cuz we were perfect together, you we’re wrong.
we’re getting over what could’ve been,
this is our unsung song.

and she stares at his pixelated name for moments at a time,
telling herself things’ll be better in time.
she’s feeding herself with black and white lies.
but it’s better this way – you know,
expected good-byes

please don’t tell me you think this is for you.

anyways, carlow said napud na they’d be here. why? i have no idea. but i know that i want to go on a tapsilog trip. lmao.

i had serious plans of sneaking out tonight but i don’t think i have the heart to do that. plus, i’m scared something might backfire on me. and it’s most likely to happen considering the fact that i still am jinxed. just a bit and in places. lmao.

and guess what? i finally got fishes. and guess what? they died. 2 out of 3 fishes died. the one’s that carlow and chabel were supposed to name. chab names hers na, hershey. carlow’s died before he could think of a decent name. whatever.

i think i’ve over eaten today. lmao.

i actually liked today, thankyouverymuch.

yesterday,i went to bed at around 4 o clock in the morning right after koh, marcko and carlow came over. we just talked and talked. and koh tried to take pictures. i just met the other two, so we didn’t actually – you know. do anything crazy. lmao.

then later, i woke up at around 8 to get ready to go to family park for the victory party of the cebu seals.oh fuck, there was soo much food and i was soo full! haha. and i ate with my hands! i did hear that it was always different when you eat with your hands. proli the germs. lmao.

i didn’t stay long though. it was a bunch of old people man pud. as for the young people, they we’re swimming, which left me by my lonesome. sucks. 🙁 so,i went to meet up with chab at irie and she had lunch and i ate french fries. soo fun 😀

and then, i went home and took a nap then we went to tita tina’s place and had dinner and watched videos that they took of em in the states. twas really nice! lmao.

tonight’s the last time i can get to stay up before my whole summer unfolds. i’m having flashbacks of school and my first day. basically of how the school looks like and how it feels in the morning and shit. ii’m not appreciating it. i’m remembering it. simple.

i’m pretty sure that by the time the start of school, i’ll be crazy. esp. when i don’t want to. i hate school, remember? i can imagine it now. god, i easily get sick of those people. i hope i have new classmates or something. i don’t think god would want to torture me twice. lmao.

and i can only imaginethe bus rides. omg with that! i heard we have a new bus. i’m looking forward to that – yes, i am. lmao.

i’ll keep you guys updated as much as possible when school starts – i promise 🙂

i love YOU.

don’t forget about us and this summer

hide so we can be found.
walk away to see who will follow.
cry to see who will wipe away our tears.
we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them

theory is that
i keep my distance
start to miss me

is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people that
treat you right, forget about the ones that don’t and believe that everything
happens for a reason. if you get a chance… take it. If it changes your life
then let it. Nobody said it’d be easy, they just promised it would be all worth
it in the end.

life lies before you like freshly fallen snow. Be careful where you step
because every step will showi
know i will never be the girl with the perfect hair or be able to wear white
without spilling anything on it…. but its okay

in the pouring rain, dance when there’s no music, walk barefoot in the sand, lay
under the stars, love like no other, share secrets wit friends, laugh until it
hurts and remember every minute of it because you only get one life

So you found out today your life’s not the same, not quite as perfect as
it was yesterday, and I know it hurts and I know it feels torn but you never
gave up this easily before, so why do you choose today to give it all away?

live in a teenage wasteland. Feel free to dump your problems.

is like photography, you use the negatives to develop

first kiss is the kiss that you will compare all the others to for the rest of
your life.

love you cant have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most.

is 10% of what you make it and 90% of how you take it

is like a book waiting for you to write it.

dream starts as soon as you wake up

Honesty’s the best policy. But insanity is the best defense

past is just a door you forgot to lock.

world is one messed up place. And to tell the truth, I like it that way.

one dies a virgin, Life screws us all.”

& our hearts skipped a beat like a scratched CD

guess everyone has someone who challenges them, && makes them shoot for
something just beyond their reach. You’re that person for me

is giving someone the ability to hurt you…. but trusting them not to

really think I’m gonna go anti-love because skipping heartbeats and butterflies
in your stomach can’t be safe.

off the lights & turn off the shyness,
all of our moves make up for the silence.
Out Boy

love you like a rockstar loves his guitar <3

all is said and done, I still think you’re amazing. I still cherish every
moment I spent with you, every smile you brought to my face. I’ll be forever
thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if you had to be
taken away too soon. See, you were my miracle. You were the fairytale I got to
live. I just want it back….

I’m ok. In a everything’s fucked up kinda way!

 Know I Made a lot Of Stupid Mistakes In
My Life But The Biggest One Yet Was Letting Myself Believe that The Guy That
Hurt Me The Most –Wouldn’t Do It Again

happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just
make the most of everything that comes their way.

no one said it was going to be easy

that doesn’t mean we’re gonna give up

I’m gonna get up and live. I’m gonna breathe, laugh, and even smile and maybe
one day I’ll have a reason to

has everything and more,
she still brakes down in tears at night,
guess there really is more than meets the eye…

the day at random times, thoughts of you fill my mind and I picture that smile
you gave me and I swear for that one second — I could barely breathe

order to get over your past, you have to start a new beginning

don’t want the boy that points at me & says “that’s her.” I want
the boy that will have his arms around me when his boys ask ” so is this the
one your always talking bout?

learned that goodbyes always hurt, pictures never replace having been there,
memories, good and bad, will bring tears and words can never replace feelings.

the worst
thing a guy can do
is make a girl fall for him
with no intention of catching her

Always hold
your head up high,
even if on the inside you’re about to cry.
Pretend that nothing’s wrong at all.
Close your eyes before you fall.
If you can’t see it, it’s not there.
This is life, and it’s not f a i r.

The only
that could hurt you
are the ones you love, cause if it
wasn’t love you wouldn’t care.

She doesn’t
wanna be your whole world. She just
wants to be a tiny city. Somewhere…  anywhere
your map.

it’s those
the ones where you get the good kind of goosebumps in 90
weather you sit there thinking about him and you can’t help but smile
whenever you see him, the need to kiss him takes your breath
away you’d rather spend the rest of your life sitting there with him
than winning the lottery or becoming famous
because when you’re there with him, you have everything

As we grow
, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let
us down
, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken & you’ll break
others hearts
. You’ll blame a new love for things an old love
did. You’ll fight with your best friend, you’ll cry cuz time is flying by,
& you’ll eventually lose somebody you love. So take too many
pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely & love like you’ve never
been hurt cuz every second you spend angry or upset is a second
of happiness you can never get back.

Maybe it’s the
way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me, or maybe it’s
the way you let me put my arms around you. Maybe it’s the way you look at me
and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it’s the way we can talk on the
phone for hours about absolutely nothing, but I still feel like I just
had the best conversation of my whole life. Maybe it’s the way that I want to
break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal.
Maybe that’s it … that makes me want to be with you so bad.

i think we
dream so we don`t
have to be apart
so long. If we`re in each other`s dreams, we
can be together all the time” — winnie the pooh

You didn’t
intentionally break my heart;
you even said you were sorry, but I cried anyway.
I know the truth that you’re too scared to admit.
You’re with her, &when you look at me,
you can’t remember her name.

That fight. That breakup. Those are the reasons why we are here
now…passing each other in the halls without even saying one word or giving
one glance, and it tears me up inside to think about it being like this

no matter how dark the sunglasses, i still see you..

Relationships are like racing, when you do it for love you’ve
already won -Racing Stripes

So let’s find a bar. So dark we forget who we are. Where all the
scars from the never’s and maybes die. Let’s go out tonight. -Rosario Dawson
“Mimi Marquez” from Rent

“Girls only want boyfriends with skills. Not num-chuck skills
or computer hacking skills.” -Napoleon Dynamite

can a heart still break ; after it has stopped beating? <3 –The
Corpse Bride–<3

We do not stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we
stop playing.

The biggest
mistake you can make is to love someone and not tell

Someone once
asked me where i thought heaven was.
I pointed to him and
said, ‘in his arms’.<3

Everyone is
always asking me what’s wrong
But I don’t even think it makes any sense
it’s just…my heart hurts.

Let’s slow
& be the couple
everyone wishes they could be.
Let’s walk in the rain
& hold hands the whole time.
Let’s look at the stars
&& kiss all night
Let’s take it slow..
then speed it up.
Let’s take stupid pictures
&& laugh ’til we can’t breathe
Let’s be friends;
let’s be lovers;
let’s be together . .
you & me

i won a contest – my mascara came down fastest.

take a picture with me,
just so i can see how
cute we could be.

there’s always gonna be that guy,
that no matter what happens between you two,
no matter how long you go without
you just never stop loving him. <3

i try to fool myself. i try to
pretend  that i want someone
but deep down, i know
i have always wished for you &&

5,388 youths
get arrested.

4219 teenagers get a sexually
transmitted disease.

3610 teens are assaulted..80 are

2816 teens drop out of school.
1377 teenagers become mothers.
1106 teen girls get an abortion.
1000 adolescents begin drinking

500 adolescents begin using

420 children are arrested for
drug use.

6 teens commin suiside
all in 1 day.




tell him i don’t ever wanna see
him again

tell him he didn’t mean anything to me. tell
him i never loved him. tell him i won’t miss
him at all. but please, don’t tell him i said
all this with tears in my eyes

I hope the next girl you kiss has
something terribly contagious on
her lips

You know, she
really did love you
more than anyone else ; but you
just let her walk into your life
&  walk right back out
Boy, you missed your chance,
because nobody will ever
love you, like that girl did…

When I look into your eyes,
I still go crazy.
That old flame comes
alive again
like it never even went out.

you write such
pretty words. but life’s no story book. love is an excuse to get hurt.

have another
drink & drive yourself home.
i hope there’s ice on all these streets. and
you can think of me when you forget your
seatbelt and then again when your head
goes through the windshield.

your kiss, your
calls, your clutch,
you lips, your lies, your lust..
like the devil’s in your hands.

A Smeared Kiss,
A moment Missed, Aren’t you Upset with this?

so that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone. And
your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow. But when crying
don’t help and you can’t compose yourself. It is best to compose a poem, an
honest verse of longing or simple song of hope. That is why I’m singing.

Boys like
the reason they made waterproof mascara.

remember when
you used to sing to me
on the phone? you weren’t that good
but i admit i still kinda miss it

She likes to
party in the backseat
Under the bridge on the Brooklyn side,
Smoking cigerettes in the after glow
Taking bets that the sun won’t rise

Turn down the
We’ll make it clear
Crawl into the backseat,
With the stale taste of beer
Baby, we don’t need music,
We’ll make it all on our own
‘Cause these anthems that we’re making
Are like buying love from a pay phone

Sit down little
girl, the sun is setting slow,
take her hand little boy and tell her all you know.

I’m drowning in
feelings && it’s scaring
me to death. Staring at
the ceiling, so many
things I could have said

Because my
Is wide with laughter
And my throat
Is deep with song,
You do not think
I suffer after
I have held my pain
So long?

let’s drink
this bottle to the very last drop.
tell me what you find at the bottom.
don’t say you forgot what i need.
because i need is you.

when im older
& my little girl asks
who my first love
i dont want to have to pull
the old photo album
i want to be able to
point across the room
& say
he’s sitting right over there

i’m just a little girl.in this
big ol world. and im stading on thin ice and i’m not moving until you turn
around, look at me and realize that, you belong to me and I belong to you. and
everything you thought before all of this was wrong and it will never be right
cuz i’m your girl. i’mthe one you should be spending forever with

You’re desperate for love and a
sucker for lies

laguna bitch

today, june something, i’ve dedicated this day to Laguna Beach. Laguna Beach, iloveyou. Oh god, i’m addicted. lmao. i had 21 episodes now.. three claps for me. clap, clap, clap. yo, yaaaah.

anyways, the parents fled off to Bohol today – just the two of them. ooohhh, making babieees. lmao. just playing. let’s not get our hopes up too high 😉
the upside to not having them around is that i can do whatever i want within these 4 concrete walls, the other 4 concrete walls surrounding park vista townhomes. the downside – yeah, just these 4 walls 🙁 i couldn’t go to the sophies party – i don’t know why i wanted to go either but i did, so yeah. lmao. and yeah, i’m over it, i guess.

so today’s been uneventful. just the typical computer buhm. and the laguna beaching, of course. lmao.

i have a mobile now,btw. oh god, i think you hate me. now, that i have a phone [casey’s] my 3315 suddenly, MIRACULOUSLY [spell it for me, darling] gets fixed. now, what the hell is THAT about? but think of it this way, maybe i’m being unjinxed. yeah,  no regrets? maybe not competely. 😐 sorry to you, but, i’m ruined right now. and i blame you and myself. lmao. but guess what? i’m over it. ><

i was able to get out of this house today, thank God. I just went to JY Square to buy brownies for my victory party tomorrow. victory party, baby. haha.

i got invited to go to the bukid with some friends today but – as usual, i wasn’t allowed to go. unless i snuck out, which is veery kaya. with the grandmother around – anything is. 😉 haha. i love moments like this. but yeah, they didn’t push through with it and all, so, i unno if they’re coming over to crash and hang out. but knowing them – i wouldn’t get my hopes up too high. i know better – yes, i’ve learned. lmao.

anyways, i’m bored. i’m posting quotes ina bit. mwahmwah