i’ve always loved my family. i know that there was a time that i didn’t love them as much because i was an emo retard and hated everything that lived and breathed. but i’m older now and i know the value of my family much much more.
anyways, this morning my papa calls us for a family meeting and we NEVER have those. i swear. so when we do, we all know it’s something important.
my papa told us that the business isn’t doing too well. he says we’re in debt and that they don’t know how to pay it. i know my parents don’t really save up like for inheritance or anything because that’s what they tell us. they say that they aren’t going to leave us with anything when they pass on. i knew why before but i guess it didn’t matter much so i forgot. So that erases the question of having any form of savings.
And then my papa says that if things get any worse, i’ll have to stop for a semester or two because my college is really expensive. I think it’s 40k a semester. and they dont even know that i have to re-take physics this semester because i failed it the first time. :/
to make things even worse, my papa said he might have to leave for the states to work there for a while. This broke my heart. we’re a family. he can’t leave us and i won’t let it! i don’t want him to leave. i’d rather stop going to school 🙁
i am so broken now.