what happened to the times when all we did was fall in love?

Somehow, I need to make you
understand how everything we say and do is connected to everything in general.
When I say you make me feel like you are being unappreciative, i mean it
because when we fight over dumb things, it makes me feel like it in general.

            I
try to make you happy by doing things for you in the same way you do. And when
I’m happy, it’ll take a lot from you to make me mad again because I don’t want
to ruin the good times, because I trust you cuz I know you love me and you
don’t want to hurt me.

            But
somehow, I always seem to get extremely hurt when I try to do my best to make
you happy and something simple like a “do you wanna talk later” is all it takes
to make you mad. It’s like, everything I do is for nothing. I try to make you
happy for so many reasons. So you’ll know how much you mean to me, so you won’t
get that mad easily, so you’ll earn my trust.

            But
somehow, I am always never enough because after a few days, we’re back to right
where we started. Fighting and wanting to kill each other… again.

            And
i tried to make you understand this before but you didn’t get it.

            You
always say na gi labot nako ang walai apil but that’s not it.

            And  I don’t know how to make you understand this.

            I’m
running out of ideas.