[Highlight of the day]

                                                “Heart attack!!”

OoO, I’m in trouble and I have no one else to blame for it but myself!

I don’t know why I’m worrying so much, there was never a “thing” and I don’t think there ever will be, especially after what happened! What did I get myself into this time?

I know that I should just embrace the present and be ready for the future. And in line with that, I’ll be sure to be holding my racket when that day comes! I should just live in the moment that **stuff** happened. [Discretion is the key!] And that maybe ina couple of days or weeks or months I’ll here it from somebody else that my nightmare just came true. So I’m prepared.

Yeah, I’m still prayin that he’ll say the words that I will always remember till’ the day I die. And when he does say it, I won’t be dreamin anymore. :]

Omg. Everything is suddenly racing into my head and it’s making me sick to the stomach! I don’t know what to do or think anymore… all I know for sure is… because of today, I just might have ruined my chances and maybe, it’s not all my fault. If I had only told someone how I felt, all of this could be stopped. I’m sorry, there’s just no one trust worthy to tell.