I saw your pictures today and it made me feel so sad. I had to sit in my tiny corner of the room and try to pull myself together because the sight of you weakened me.

I was sad because it made me realize the things that I regret doing. I regret not being a better friend and for not being there when you needed to know who your true friends were. I regret putting my feelings first and thinking how awkward it was for me and how I kept saying “me” when I should’ve been thinking of you.

I am sorry and i will always be sorry and hopefully one day my sorries will be strong enough to lift you up and make things a little bit better.

Get well, Pao abd happy birthday!