9

In 9 days, I will be a year older- I can only wish to say wiser & stronger but I think the right terms would be skeptical & guarded. Nothing wrong with that, I need to protect myself first above all now. This needs some getting used to.

When the 9th day comes, I wish to be sitting somewhere quietly & peacefully- like how I’ve always enjoyed celebrating my birthdays. I just want to listen to silence and maybe look at something beautiful.

Candles, surprises, gifts, lots of hugs and kisses, horror movies, pretty & peaceful things – yes

Cakes, cheap alcohol, tight and crowded spaces, people that I want to punch in the face – no