no one really wins
i hate seeing you sad, right now id just about love to come up with
something to make you feel better. But i dont think anything i do or
say right now is gonna change anything. And im afraid saying the guy
was a total jerk would offend you, but he couldnt have been that much
of a jerk, you loved him, and you had your reason to, and well, i dont
know the guy to well either.
I didnt think it’d turn out this way.
k,
know what? forget that, the guy IS a jerk, a jerk i always thought was
the luckiest guy to have your heart. But he goes ahead and crushes it.
Its not your fault, the guy can only see what he wanted, and not what
he had.
He was just another phase, and im pretty sure you
learned alot from it. Like i said, dont go looking for the perfect guy
for you just yet, go out and look for an experience, this right here,
was one.
something to make you feel better. But i dont think anything i do or
say right now is gonna change anything. And im afraid saying the guy
was a total jerk would offend you, but he couldnt have been that much
of a jerk, you loved him, and you had your reason to, and well, i dont
know the guy to well either.
I didnt think it’d turn out this way.
k,
know what? forget that, the guy IS a jerk, a jerk i always thought was
the luckiest guy to have your heart. But he goes ahead and crushes it.
Its not your fault, the guy can only see what he wanted, and not what
he had.
He was just another phase, and im pretty sure you
learned alot from it. Like i said, dont go looking for the perfect guy
for you just yet, go out and look for an experience, this right here,
was one.
i promised myself and the whole freaking world that i wouldn’t cry but god, it’s begining to be soo hard to do. kevin, thank you soo much. i don’t want to think that francis is a jerk because i look up to him soo much even if he did hurt me ten times more. i guess all i ever really wanted was something to be contented about and happy about and crazy about. i hear chabel talk about how happy she is all the time and i never really get that. i don’t understand how a single soul can make you soo happy. i didn’t understand how someone could make you melt or how a BOY could do all those things to a person. but on prom night, i kinda understood a minute part of all of that and then as quickly as i felt it, it went away. just like every other time. 🙁
i went to church today, i was soo quiet and the whole time, the only thing i wantd to do was cry. i was soo mad at the world and mad at myself because i screwed up.. again. when am i ever going to make it right, kev? 🙁
crying again
i don’t get it. i don’t get myself and i don’t get what god’s plans for me are anymore.
“but on prom night, i kinda understand a minute part of all of that”i think right there is the silver lining to all of this. its never ALWAYS been painful has it? dont forget to remember everything else, not just the things that leave the scars. Its ok to cry, but you shouldnt beat yourself up about it too much. Its life, we screw up alot, ive had my share of screw ups too. i kinda stopped believing someone was up there controlling what i do,should do, or am going to do. Ive spent too much time thinking, about just about everything. Im not saying you should too. I envy those who still have some sort of guidance in their lives.aaanyway.. just remember, there are still others out there who care about you. :ptake care of yourself iss 🙂
“but on prom night, i kinda understand a minute part of all of that”i think right there is the silver lining to all of this. its never ALWAYS been painful has it? dont forget to remember everything else, not just the things that leave the scars. Its ok to cry, but you shouldnt beat yourself up about it too much. Its life, we screw up alot, ive had my share of screw ups too. i kinda stopped believing someone was up there controlling what i do,should do, or am going to do. Ive spent too much time thinking, about just about everything. Im not saying you should too. I envy those who still have some sort of guidance in their lives.aaanyway.. just remember, there are still others out there who care about you. :ptake care of yourself iss 🙂
We don’t choose the person we fall for or get attracted with…It hits us like a speeding bullet and BANG!!!We couldn’t feel it at first, until we see ourselves bleeding…
We don’t choose the person we fall for or get attracted with…It hits us like a speeding bullet and BANG!!!We couldn’t feel it at first, until we see ourselves bleeding…
i hate typos. expecially the really ugly ones
i hate typos. expecially the really ugly ones