I have this uncontrollable to be the best at everything. And it’s nights like this days behind on my period, PMS-ing like it’s no one’s business that make me realize that I’m not the best and for a fact, I never will be which ultimately makes me want more and get all anxious.
Sometimes it’s not even about being the best but rather about me not being where I want to be and not knowing what to do about it. I swear, I want too much sometimes. Not in the material realm though but in life.
I’m always feeling lost lately and frustrated and angry and I don’t know why.
I wish I would stop pushing people away and I wish I wasn’t such a bitch to actually cry it out.
Why can’t I cry….