oh but i’ll try…

i wish that there was a way that i could keep you from making the same mistakes that i’ve been making over and over again.

i wish that there were lines i could use or things i could do to explain to you how hard life is and how i wish you never ever have to go through the things us people have to go through to truly know what life is.

i wish there was something i could do to make your life seem as if it were served on a silver platter and how i wish that your life would just fall into place where you would just be happy.

but we both know that’s not going to happen.

i hope you learn to love unconditionally without doubt and without asking for anything in return. I hope that the first time you get your heartbroken you’ll learn that most of our hurts come from relationships but most of the time, it’s the only way it can get healed. along with this lesson, i wish you’d choose to not let that be your only healing factor. May you find it in you to heal the pain that often times takes forever to patch.

Life is going to be hard for you, no doubt. but i want you to be strong. I’m writing you this letter at 18 years old basically because i’m bored and it’s interesting. And if you ever run into this in the future, i just wanna tell you that if you think you’re a screw up, well, i am too and it’s ok to make mistakes because that’s the only way we learn.

i love you. and i’ve been thinking about you even before you were born or made. i’ve dreamt of you and how beautiful i’ll make life for you. I’m sorry if i’m a bad mother. and i bet i will be.

xoxo

issa